
Wow, I never thought i'd ever be making one of these, Im always so anti-writing about my life because I guess that means people can read it and I guess I feel like they would be meddling into my own personal business. So, here we go?
I turn 22 in 2 days, its royally been scaring the crap out of me, I look at my life and where all my friends are and I seem so far behind. 3 years ago I would never have imagined myself where I am, haha I mean I am working at a car dealership, but looking back 2 years ago, i've acompished and grown so much, I hardly even recognize myself. 2010 has been nothing but a wonderful life changing eye-opener, after years of wallowing around in self pity I finally can say, i've matured, I look back a year ago and the people I was surrounding myself in, and realized wow, i'm so glad I got out of that, they we're people who had no plans for their future and though I do wish the best for them, seem more at a stand still in their lives. I've acceived more of a greatfulness (is that a word??...oh well) for the wonderful people I have in my life, and can finally give 100% to my friendships, and I think it is finally showing. I cannot thank my wonderful parents and little brother enough for being with me through everything, and wow, did I put them through enough, its about time I start giving back. I've been so selfish, and have hurt a lot of people, and lost them cause of my own pride, and i'm very lucky for the ones that never gave up on me or judged me when I was at my worst. I guess I can say Oklahoma was a huge eye opener for me, It made me realize how I was living my life, and it was a 'now or never' choice I had to make, I could either keep living like I was, and keep going down hill, or make a change, and now trust me, im not looking back. I've gotten myself in enough trouble as it is, and thinking back, it wasnt at all worth it, but I did learn some valuble lessons. I'm glad to see what 2010 brings, and finally except what it has to offer, because lets face it, Life is what happens, when your busy making other plans.